Monthly Archives: April 2007

When all by myself

 
You feel yourself strong; you feel yourself capable; but you are afraid of failing.
You trust your intuition; you believe in your own dreams; but deep inside you doubt them.
It was only when you are all by yourself that you felt the emptiness, the loneliness; and you feared darkness.
 
It was when crowded that you feel isolated, not part of others’, not part of yourself; and you feared the sun shine.
 
Yet there is just no place to hide, no way of escaping. THE END is never the end; and when we say ‘this is not the end’, we know that’s all.
 

Sometimes ppl say, we don have a choice.
 
Sometimes ppl worry, we have so many choices.
 
but why?~ why choices?~ why are we so inflexible when talking about them?
are we really choosing, or has it been chosen for us?
 
life is always full of surprise, so uncertain, yet so destined to be.
 

Someone moved on, someone left behind

The title is not so~~~ precise of what is going on, but eventually this is what is going to happen. People are leaving, creating a never  stronger sense of remorse. One day we are going to say goodbye; on another day, we are all going to be by ourselves.

It’s just so hard to bid farewells to people, especially when you may never get to see them again. However, this heavy burden of leaving and being left behing comes back to us, haunts us when we go to sleep; in the darkness you feel the sadness, you feel the loneliness, you feel the longing for a hug, you feel the nastalgia for home…… They call it the eternal return, the philosophers, but what we are experiencing that are left behind for us, is just memory.

People used to say, I lived, and I moved on; but please, when you go on, do not look back; so you will not regret; and you will not see the tears running down.

To close this in a happier atmosphere, I should quote this funny little poem:

I was left here waiting, but I’ll be right here waiting~~

Farewell to those who have left, and all the best for those who are leaving. 

So always remember, ‘Friends are forever’.

 

就是这样

有人说When the world turns its back on you, you just turn your back on the world,可是事情不应该是这样。
 
There is a place for everybody.
 
And nothing to worry.

努力生活

有时候觉得自己很渺小,很多事情都是自己的力量没有办法改变的;所以才会经常的迷茫。

有时候看着自己身边的人一个一个的都有了自己的方向,自己还在原地踏步;所以才会失落。

 

虽然现在的生活是自己的选择,可是回想起来,当时面对的许多种选择里,自己显得很无力:我是不是真的想要这样?

 

现在依然记得,要离开中国了吧,只不过是自己想逃避,逃避什么呢?逃避自我本性无法避免的未来;可是我何尝避开了呢?现在又想着希望离开,离开到更远的地方;我是不是又想要逃了呢?我又能逃到哪里去呢?有些事情最终我还是得面对的。

 

其实我没有选择,从一开始就没有。人是这么渺小的生物呢……不管怎么样我也只能每一天每一小时每一分钟,努力的生活下去!迷茫但是幸福,痛并快乐着。

                                                   

好久没有更新了~

由于太久没有更新了~上来给大家汇报一下最近的情况~~
 
简单的说,情况不错~有点转运的迹象了~
 
困了~不想写了~所以去睡了~
 
大家晚安,呵呵~

想了些事

多谢dy和田哥~~我心情好多了,现在不郁闷了~~引用一句古话说是
 
 
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